This last weekend was so much fun. Sam and I didn't have to rush here so much and had a good time relaxing more and doing random funness on a whim! :) Saturday we were at the shop all afternoon working on my car. Sam is amazing! He can literally do anything! That night we went to dinner and went to Lake Hefner just as the sun was disappearing over the horizon! It was beautiful but extremely windy making it a night to remember!
Love you Superman and miss you! Oh I can not wait until March 8th; the day I become your wife! 137 more days to go!

Whew...talk about the hot seat!!! This one will make you stop and shudder! If the devil were to write his beatitude's, they would probably go something like this:

1. Blessed are those who are too tired, too busy, too distracted to spend an hour once a week with their fellow Christians -- they are my best workers.

2. Blessed are those Christians who wait to be asked and expect to be thanked -- I can use them.

3. Blessed are the touchy who stop going to church -- they are my missionaries.

4. Blessed are the trouble makers -- they shall be called my children.

5. Blessed are the complainers -- I'm all ears to them.

6. Blessed are those who are bored with the minister's mannerisms and mistakes, for they get
nothing out of his sermons.

7. Blessed is the church member who expects to be invited to his own church - for he is a part of the problem instead of the solution.

8. Blessed are those who gossip -- for they shall cause strife and divisions that please me.

9. Blessed are those who are easily offended -- for they will soon get angry and quit.

10. Blessed are those who do not give their offering to carry on God's work -- for they are my helpers.

11. Blessed is he who professes to love God but hates his brother and sister -- for he shall be with me forever!

12. Blessed are you who, when you read this think it is about other people and not yourself -- I've got you, too!

PASS THIS ON, WE ALL NEED TO BE REMINDED THAT THIS CAN HAPPEN TO ANY CHRISTIAN, INCLUDING YOU AND ME.

So, here I am in a darkish, quiet and remotish secretary office, at Western Hills Baptist Church on 44th and Walker at 9:49 am on Tuesday morning, drinking my hot chocolate, freezing my toes off, and missing Samuel! :) Sounds fun, right? Yea I know..........Well, for some reason today I have been struggling with Satan. Right now I feel like I am shooting every Holy Spirit dart I can and yet he always seems to have a bigger meaner dart to shoot right back in pain every time! Cruel, sick, nasty, little poisonous spider!

In my Bible study with the college and career girls every other Tuesday, we are going through a study called Intimacy with God and I seriously think that is the main reason Satan is on me like a fly on butter right now. This morning I had a wonderful time with the Lord. The thing I LOVE about this study is all about studying Scripture. You are literally soaking yourself in God's Word and Satan doesn't like it one little bit! We're learning right now about the ways, the traps and the sickness of Satan. How our flesh is the offspring of the Devil and I'm telling you the more I learn about Satan the more I grow to hate him, the more I wanna fight him, and the more I want to become more closer to my Heavenly Father! When I see how he traps me, he ruins me and about his secretive little nets he lays in wait for you I grow more angrier with every second!

So, this morning you all can pray for me okay! I need it! Right now it would be really easy for me to become a grumpy and self focused whine bag for the rest of the day and I REALLY do no want to! I know that I could have a totally rotten rest of the day if I don't take hold of Satan and give him a good hard swift kick out the door! It is not the easiest thing in the world to do either and I CAN NOT do it without the Lord! I can not do it in my own strength because my own strength is flesh and that is Satan's nature anyway so I am totally stupidly defeating my purpose!

Sam, I know that you are praying for me and I know you understand because you have days like this too. I'm praying for you Samuel to keep my mind on good and not grumpy because you aren't here and because we've been engaged 8 months and have 5 more to go and I feel kind of like a loner right now because no one else seems to ever wait that long and we're weird because we're saving ourselves for March 8th and though I'm glad and know the Lord is going to reward us beyond our imaginations it is a killer of a hard time not to feel completely lonely and ahhhhh...........(that was a big run-on sentence *laughing*).......but Satan is such a deceiver and right now my heart is kind of hurting to the point of completely distracting me from ever being able to get anything done right now! In fact the min. are ticking by like forever slow right now and that is really hard.

So, Lord I need your strength! I'm trusting you Father!!!!

Miss you Superman Sam and I can not wait to see you Saturday! I pray that you have the blessing of Lord on your day today! You are my hero! I respect you and admire you more than any other man in the world and I'm proud of who you are!!

1 O GOD, You are Sam's God, may he earnestly seek You; may his inner self thirst for You, may his flesh long and be faint for You, in a dry and weary land where no water is.
2 May he look upon You in the sanctuary to see Your power and Your glory.
3 Because Your loving-kindness is better than life, may his lips praise You.
4 May he bless You while he lives; may he lift up his hands in Your name.
5 May his whole being be satisfied as with marrow and fatness; and may his mouth praise You with joyful lips.
6 When I remembers You upon his bed and meditate on You in the night watches.
7 For You have been his help, and in the shadow of Your wings may he rejoice.
8 May his whole being follow hard after You and cling closely to You; May Your right hand upholds him.
9 May all those who seek and demand his life to ruin and destroy it shall, themselves be destroyed and go into the lower parts of the earth into the underworld of the dead.
10 May they be given over to the power of the sword; and be a prey for foxes and jackals.
11 But the kings shall rejoice in God; everyone who swears by Him, who binds himself by God's authority, acknowledging His supremacy, and devoting himself to His glory and service alone; every such one shall glory. May Sam be that one!!!!

Psalm 63

Well today leaves Sam and I with 5 months exactly to go to our wedding! 8 months gone already! Yes, it is a frightening thought, an exciting thought, a READY-TO-GET here day! The way I see it though is these last 8 months have gone extremely fast so I know that the next 5 are going to go at least that fast though with all there is to do I believe much faster still! :)

So, this last weekend I went to Texas to be with Sam. the fun part about it is that Jon came over from Andy and Joanna's and we all hung out together all weekend! It was nice to sit around and talk, watch movies.....just have fun together! I hadn't realized how much Jon was missed until he got there Friday night!

At the movies!!!


Our movie theater collection for the weekend! :) lol

Jon was having fun with the remote control light. Nut head I know but he was sure entertaining himself! :) Sam on the other hand says it is to early to be taking his picture! No not really. :) It looks that way though!

So, last Thursday night I go to Texas to surprise Sam. Jeremy and Callie were having a party at Jere's house so I decided I was going! :) He had no idea I was coming. I don't even think it came close to being a reality of something that would happen to him! It was a blast to do and for ONCE I actually was able to hide a surprise from him without him finding out or figuring it out! :) It turned out to be quite an adventure though. Thurs. night I ended up spraining my ankle really bad while unloading (or I should say fixing to unload) my vehicle! You should've seen me trying to drive home on Friday. I ended up driving Sam's truck and he drove my car later when he came down because it has an easier gas and break petal.

So that whole weekend I hobbled around on crutches feeling rather stupid! But Superman Sam was having the time of his life following me around serving me! Man, he blew me away with his love! Cared my instruments, bringing me this, getting me that, helping me get here and there........ :)

Saturday I had a wedding to play in with my quartet and Sam was a lifesaver! I have no idea how I would have hauled all my gear around while on crutches! It seemed to take forever for the wedding to be over! I was so tired of playing! I think we all were!

At the reception. (It was an elaborate wedding!)

Sam I think had fun with the camera.

The quartet is in the background of these pictures by the way! :)

After the wedding though Sam took me to eat and it was worth all the long playing for the good time I had with Sam!